Think ‘ere ye act
Hie hie hie
Hence, dont be reluctant
Time doth not wait for man
Dost ye think thy control the gates ?
‘Tis time that makes a man
Oh ye! It wont wait
How do you expect this to work, when there’s a third party.
You are not deserving
Time is running out ,I need you to free me
I can’t be your prisoner anymore.
Today I’m alive, tomorrow I might not be
Let me be wild today, before the sun comes out tomorrow.
Leave me be.
I am a black rose from a garden filled with red ones.
Always looking to the red ones for strength and love
But I’m always cast aside.
I put on my happy mask everyday,
The sad one is too revealing.
I don’t want the world to see how burnt i am
Instead, I hide my tears behind the mask,
Waiting for someone to finally remove the mask.
I’m not perfect
I make mistakes and that’s what makes me human
The only time I feel almost perfect is when I write
That’s the only time my heart takes control
That’s the only time I truly feel alive
That’s the only time I don’t feel like I’m drowning in a box
That’s the only time I feel like me.
I don’t know about you
But that’s the only time I let my emotions out .
Those scars those scars
Shine like the stars
Only if you could see through them
You would know the story behind
Deep deep within those bitter sweet memories
Lies a dark secret and a good fortune
Which is inevitable.
She was depicted as glamorous
With holes and stiches,
Yet none could see
How she was acting, so guile.
Down to earth, a description of her
But a rotter she thought of herself.
Only if the world could see
How broken she is.
I am grateful for all i have, yet I’m unhappy.
My body dances to the rhythm everyday
My brain acquires all the information it can
My stomach is always satisfied
I go to school and I have a roof under my head
And yet, I’m unhappy.
My question is why?
Why does my body tell me I’m not loved?
Why do I feel like an avalanche is on top of me?
Why do I feel like my weight is killing me suddenly?
Maybe it’s because I’ve given my body all that it desires and forgotten about my soul.
A wise man once told me the soul doesn’t belong in this world, it belongs in the hereafter,
With the Creator
In order to make it happy,
You need to please the Creator for the Soul to be at ease.
Maybe this is the cause of my unhappiness.
I’ve been too engrossed in making my body happy and have forgotten about the soul.
I am in shambles.
Where were you when I was not myself?
Where were you when my body was putting negative thoughts in my head?
I just needed you at that time
I looked up to you, but you let me down.
You left me.
I danced to the rhythm alone
I was spinning so fast
I thought I wouldn’t make it, but I did.
I spoke to God.
I depended on you
I got so attached
I thought it was you and I against the world but I thought wrong.
I Gave you my all
But you threw it away.
It’s too late now
The music is dead
Just silent voices left.
Too bad you can’t hear them
The music has made you deaf.
Being a loner isn’t bad
You made it fun for me and now I keep having wild thoughts.
I used to think we were the same, but not anymore.
We live in two different places now.
I don’t like what you like
I don’t eat what you eat
You breath but I don’t because I’m not really alive.
This is just a game.
I guess I’ve never thought about death until you came along. You put the fear of dying in my heart and at that moment, I became scared.
Maybe God wanted to tell me something
So I can increase my faith .
But I took it the wrong way
I became insecure
Not the confident little girl
Not mummy’s little baby
But a grown woman
And in a way, I’m thankful it happened
And I’m not at the same time.
I isolate myself because of you
I’m scared of people getting too close to me because my days are counted.
I wish I could see the tall man that pushed me away that night, not to thank him
But to ask him why,
Why he didn’t allow me to leave this world in peace.
Now I live with guilt everyday.
Is he still alive?
Does he go around saving people?
Maybe it was an angel God sent to me that night
To protect me from the man in the black car that was sent to end my life.
My heart literally stopped when he laughed and shouted
The one that got away. I’ve met a million other people
After you I had another
And also one after the other
I thought it was going to feel the same
I was wrong
And that was when I knew that for me,
Love was you.
It felt extremely different from the others
I had not realized this until another came
But still couldn’t make me feel the same
You made me feel like I was worth a million bucks,
and even more.
You made me believe that love,
was more than just a word
was more than just feelings
You gave love a meaning for me.
You made me feel PRICELESS.
I found out a part of me I didn’t know about
It was the first time I placed someone else before myself
I let go of my pride for you without any hesitation
I became the person I didn’t know I was
I became weak when it came to anything about you
With you I got confused who I loved more
Whether it was you or myself
I’m yet to figure out.
I began to lose myself
Because it was always about you
Nothing else but you
Even you before myself
I got scolded at for being so into you
Everyone told me that this love story would end someday
I told them they were wrong
I argued you were different
and definitely not like the others
Because I had nothing but hope in you
All my trust was in you
I never for once imagined you leaving
Or even if I did it was a dream
But unfortunately you proved everyone right
And proved me wrong
You ended up leaving
It was the first time I had sleepless nights
Thinking where I had gone wrong
I blamed myself even if I didn’t leave
You left but I still justified why you left
I became a fool for you
I always am when it comes to you
You made me believe the saying that
Love is the closest to death
I had to learn the hard way
And that’s why I’ll always call you
The one that got away.
Maybe you were meant to come into my life but you weren’t meant to stay.
I still wish you were meant to stay
But it will be fine I know
I still have puzzles in my head
Trying to figure out