Perfection

I use words

To paint pictures

So,

When I’m writing

I write with rage,

With passion

And that’s beautiful

Sacrifice

I can’t seem to let go of you even when I know you’re bad for me

Maybe

I need a little bit of hurt

To remind me of when I put a leash on the wild in me

Because with you,

I hide my pain

With you,

I forget

And I don’t want to forget

Because it’s a part of me now.

So,

Do me a favor

Let me go.

I know it’s going to hurt you

But

I care about me

More than I do you.

Defeat

Everyday,

My head points a gun to my heart

But doesn’t pull the trigger.

So much chaos in one body

DENIAL

I want to save myself

But

I refuse to be the girl who needs saving

Silently Crying

4am,

In a playground

With my thoughts

Running like the wind

Not even caring

To stop for a breath

I’m running out of air

Please,

Save me.

Born Again

Looking at the sun

From my room

As the rain pours,

Thinking about nothing

But how beautiful

The world looks

For the first time.

Now that I’m back on my feet

With an unapologetic smile on my face

For fighting all those monsters

That held me close

When no one was there,

All memories now.

I am happy to announce,

The birth

Of a beautifully scarred soul.

Moving on

Goodbye

To the part of me you now own

It was nice

Having both of you around

And blinding

At the same time

Hopeful

One day

Just one day,

I won’t write about you.

But for now,

Let me use you

To find myself

MY Art

I’m standing in a room,

Naked.

People pointing fingers at me

Some are plucking my wings,

Breaking me.

This is how I feel whenever I share my thoughts and feelings.

Vulnerable.

I can’t break,

So I hide behind this

And this gives me life.

Wrong

The world is unfair to you

Because you did what everyone was too scared to do,

Love me